Untold story

Bound n tortured
Beaten n mortared
Written in her every tear
The story she can never share
Hidden from prodding eyes
She revels in her lies
Comforting are the constant delusions
They provide temporary relief from her confusion
Madness whispers across her brain
Release to me your pain
Forsake the shame
Surrender all blame
Yet she remains
The sweet temptation she must resist
Weakened by judging stares
Threatening to unveil her darkest fears
Burdened by the many cares
Lost in what cannot be shared
Longing for that loving touch
Rotting in the dust
A mind alike
Who recognized her soul
Witnessed the untold
Stood bold
Mighty warrior to defend
A maidens will
Yet not invincible
Copper and Blood
Frozen in time
Shattered her mind
Water runs red
With the regrets of the dead
An innocent head
Upon her breast
Her agony to protect
Some how her saving grace
Perfect little face
Angel of mercy
Birthed upon loves battlefields
Clothed in betrayal
A brazen portrayal
Desperation overthrows all sensations
Brutality has murdered her patience.
Observe now her demise
She will no longer accept life's compromise
Falling through broken skies
Held by endless ties
Cold rage flares in her eyes
Banished in a smile
Though it lasts a short while
It deceives enough
She escapes a just mile
They are soon close behind
Pursuing her soul
Coveting her mind.

You...

I called for you,


You did not hear.


I cried for you,


You were not there.


I look for you,


You are nowhere !


I ache for you,


You are Everywhere !


I died for you,


The cause, was Clear...


You were no longer here.



Angelia Trixianna Ramirez

Dying love

Light on the eyes
Heavy on the heart
It was a union doomed from the very start
The love within could not overcome the dark
No appreciation
No validation
For the murder of their nation
A confession
In confusion
As the conflict parts
Takes with it the curtain of denial
Leaves them bare
Naked
And on trial
Debating wills lost along the rocky road of life
Tenderness forgotten, beaten in strife
The lore of sin to catch their eyes
Greener grass and glittering gold
For it all they've sold their souls
For only once does true love find
Accepted by the wise
Rejected by the blind.

Alone with a memory

Isn't it funny how after so many years
I can remember every word u spoke to me, how i can still hear you so clearly?
Or the solid beat of your heart beneath my head as you breathe. The way time stopped as your burning skin touched mine.
The way I'd hate my name
Until it was on your lips
That one night you held me under the twinkling stars
As the sea glittered and sang
The melody in our hearts
From afar the dazzling lights of ships
Added to complete that perfect serene scene
In our last night of love; of bliss
In your eyes the truth u did not hide
For i knew u from the inside
Isn't it funny they said
What love will make you sacrifice?
This would be our only night
Wrap me in your delights
Kiss away these wretched tears
That betray my deepest fears
Hold me near
Though you must leave
Grant me one final memory
One final vow
Before the impending despair
Before you disappear.

Dream Lover

Take me away
Lover of my dreams
Take me away
And keep me there to stay
Hold me firm
In tender embrace
Heal these wounds
With love replace
As i gaze into your loving face
No Hatred
No disgrace
Take me away
Let tenderness advance
Til the curtain of stars
Become the rays of day
Love me from afar no more
Caress my heart
Release my soul
Longing like this I've never known
To be loved to be known
I'll dally not with scores of chits
Laughing in folly over forgotten Witt's
Grant me instead your silken lips
Give me not diamonds or gold
Keep me in your precious hold
With your strength a new love is birthed
Endless years have i searched
For you who makes me feel whole
That even lost youth be restored
Yes ancient are my tender bones
Hidden hearts
Forgotten truths
Take me lover
To a place
That this pain it may erase.

Type of Girl

I'll never be the type of girl...
Who loves a club scene,
I'll never be the type of girl...
Who needs a big crowd,
I'll never be the type of girl...
Who is fast or loud,
I'll never be the type of girl...
Who will want your cash,
I'll never be the type of girl...
Who dreams of riches or fans.
But I am the type who you'll always find with a notebook or novel in hand.
I'm the type of girl..
Who likes long walks in warm sand,
I'm the type of girl...
Who loves to feel,
I'm the type of girl...
Who will keep it real,
I'm the type of girl...
Who falls in love,
I'm the type of girl...
That doesn't mind cuddles or hugs
I'm the type of girl...
To rock cotton tees with fleece socks,
I'm the type of girl...
Who will hold you through your pain,
I'm the type of girl...
Who dances in the rain,
I'm the type of girl...
Who prefers family over games,
I'm the type of girl...
Who will keep fighting for you; long after you've stopped fighting for yourself,
I'm the type of girl...
To deny a frown,
I'm the type of girl...
Who will stand her ground,
I am the type of girl...
That will hold you down.

Angelia Trixianna Ramirez

Half of a whole

Where do you go when there is no where left to turn?
Who do you call when there is no one left who cares?
Emotions simmered, has reached a boil
Rage and pain bubble and burn
The darkness clawing, from so deep inside
Threaten to consume her whole
Her dreams have crashed, confusion a knife through her soul.
The abyss open wide
Beckons to her shattered heart
Dwell within and feel no more...
Embrace forever
Chosen,
No return
A life forgotten
A death apart.

Angelia Trixianna Ramirez

The Suicide of a Soul.

Falling, Falling...
There is no end to this incessant pounding.
Drowning, Drowning...
There is no feeling left.
Calling, Calling...
No one left to hear
Travel with horse and whip
To the doors of deaths grip
Never stopping,
Yes... I wish to be freed
From this anguish that has taken hold
Wanting, Wanting...
Not to fold;
Metal bars that oppress my soul
Grey floors worn
Morale Sold,
Prison of my own making
I'm yours for the taking
Trying, Trying...
Hope sore
Crying, Crying...
No more.

Angelia Trixianna Ramirez.

Betrayal

Set me free
Torment me no longer
Demons of old
You ravish my mind
Grip me in relentless hold
Let me be!
Bound in honour
Bleed in disgrace
I cannot break such titan chains
Oh, betrayers of my heart
Peer into my soul
Step into these burdened eyes
Your contrition, my sorrow will replace
Your lies drowned in my pains
Over your fears will my anguish abound
Take from me all you have
Administer the coup de Grace;
Just punish me no more
What evil do I bring,
That you hate me so?
Persecution overflows, my windows even doors
Crushing all mortal strength
There's no one left to show
Yet, the story must be told
Loyalty of Gold
Lost to bitter envy
Forgotten ally
Stolen friend.
I've been exiled, left out in the cold
They've taken all their eyes could see
Abandoned they my memory
Added to the treachery
One last torment.... Gifted unto me.


Angelia Trixianna Ramirez

Who I Am.

I am who I am and I love it!
I am who I am and I will not change it!
I am who I am an I will embrace it
I am Beautifully, Individually, Original...
Its time you face this.

Angelia Trixianna Ramirez

Hear my prayer

Lord; hear my prayer
Incline heavens forgiving ears
Weary am I;
Whom lives in despair
As pride and vanity impair
Stretch to me thy loving grace
That my sorrow it may replace
Turn on me thy holy face
And carry my spirit to a place
Where it might finally be at peace
No longer yearning to flee
I bow before thee
And offer all of me
Heal me with thy gentle hands
That have built nations and ravaged lands
Leave me not to mine own will
But release my soul along waters still
In secret does the enemy wait
To drag me from mercies gates
Forsake me not to this lonely fate
Wrap me in thy precious embrace
Give me but, just one taste
Of that which he gave his life for mine;
Honor and glory they are thine
Lord please hear my prayer
And once more offer up thy righteous ear
From this darkness free my soul
Release me from evil's wicked hold
Bless me with thy awesome love
Uplift me on the pure wings of the precious dove
Free me through thy saving faith
To the battlefields I will run prepared am I
To suffer as did your son
Understanding and knowledge has dawned on me
Like the pull of the moon and sea
I feel your spirit call to mine
Ready am I to accept your aid
Defeat my captor
That through you I may shine
And deliver me in time
Remember my calling
Through my falling
Hear my prayer
Lord, keep me near.

Angelia Trixianna Ramirez

Mirror on her wall...

Eyes that travel to the depths of a burdened soul
Beauty and innocence left in the cold
Countless years of sorrow
Marked by actions of old
Secrets, Lies, too many stories untold
Her task to bare
The worst is all too clear
Damage beyond repair
A projection of confidence
The image of pride
Cloak shame and fear
Smiles and wit
Fists and kicks
Masquerades the tears inside
From the world she will hide
With a courage that stands tall
All so, they will never see the reflection
In the mirror on her wall.

Angelia Trixianna Ramirez

Dreamer

In our world of Superstition
I see only two types of people
The wise men and the fools
The wise man's way will never be known
But a fools eyes are reflecting pools
For what the wise will hide
A fool prides
The wise I believe are realists
The fools; Dreamers
The wise are keen with their hearts
Not the fool with his he will quickly part
Which of the two
I wonder is most true ,
The wise who thinks with his head?
Or the fool that listens to his heart ?
The wise looks for happiness and finds it
The fool creates his
And is content in his fantasy bliss
Where does this leave the dreamer
Dreaming of being a realist I wonder
In quick sand that keeps pulling them under
When the heart tells them to go
But their heads warn no
Even as they crush the realist
The dreamers dream on
This dreamer i fear has dreamed for too long.

Angelia Ramirez.
R.I.P. 26.03.2014

Creatures of the deep

A magnificent civilization divided
Because foolishly our reflections we pride
They left within the tides
In the vast unknown they survive
Driven to darkest depths
They thrived
Companions to the soldier's of the deep
They've embraced this glassy land as theirs to keep
Facing dangers unimaginable
Securing their futures in a way unfathomable
Leaders of the sea
Unlike their ancestors who basked in the crystal waves by day
Slipping lithely through the rapid currents by dark
Now apart of the watery abyss
Gazing longingly at the bay
Battling predators untold
When; Strange happenings unfold
Maddening noises fill the calm
Forcing their protector's to beach with insanity
Where death will take them
Their flesh picked from their gigantic bodies
Their bones left to bleach
How these intelligent creatures mourn one and all
To see so many mighty warriors fall
Some though in pain; rush to their gentle protector's aid
Others retreat
Too vulnerable
Too afraid
At watery gates they watch, they wait
All in attendance know it's already too late
The would be rescuer's attempt to descend back into the sea
But this foreign air is not what they remembered it to be
It's thick with dirt
Far too hot to breathe
Most are able to make it back
Avoiding the impending traps
But one; in desperate search of more had wandered too far up shore
The smoggy air filled his aquatic lungs
He tried to make it back in
Cursing himself for straying to where he should not have been
He does not make it
He collapses before
Hard, dry sand beneath him
His rapidly drying skin is sore
One last desperate attempt at life
He sheltered beneath the surrounding seaweeds
Not knowing it was already too late
Discovered, he was seen
A meeting with fate;
Poked at by heavy sticks of brass
Aliens in white
They had no face's
Lights that were too bright
Burned his sensitive eye's
Confusion reined
They had trapped him in the strangest of places
A bubble of the element so dear to him
Stretches but will not burst
He is carried to a lab
Later removed in a black bag
Terrifyingly; he is only the first.

Angelia Ramirez

Poem about Mermaids after watching the expose on discovery channel I was so completely, touched and intrigued I wrote this. I hope u all enjoy it.

Face in my memories

Half of a whole
Memory of the past
Dreams that never last
Torn from my soul
Joy untold
Fading Is the day
Into an eternal night
Death waits
Lurks , a shadow at my door
Vigil too lonely
Comfort too brief
Burning oceans dull
But this grief
Will never cease
Weary I grow
Fighting to protect my only prize
Long forgotten is the will to survive
Still from these ashes I continue to rise
Bring me not smiles of youth
Feather light kisses; or bold truths
I despise it all
Even as I fall
Further from the wings of grace
I see that face
Face I've loved,
Face I've lost
Face I always will
Salty trails those precious lips did follow
Promising lies of a longer tomorrow
My heart I did allow borrowed
Stole these secrets to keep
For deep inside I knew they would disappear with sleep
Treasure left behind
Guarded by my love
Our joy; My pain
Our love; My burden
My everything; Our Claim
There came the rains
It took my all
It took that face
Shards of glass flow through my veins
The knowledge
Death has taken my place
By my own hand did it perish
That which I so cherished
Never to be loved
Cursed to love
Open the door
The time has come
To just run.

Angelia Ramirez

Storm^

The river is raging
She's sure the dam will break
And drown her in her pain
She faces the biting wind
the stinging rain
All around her; trees crash to the ground
It's the end of her world
and she cant even make a sound
A lightning bolt struck
The sky is alive
Amethyst; Coal
All her air is gone
She is losing her soul
Head spiraling
She is going insane
Far away
There is a beautifully sad song
It calls to her
A little more;
He wont be long
Almost there;
Where did she go wrong?
Dark, Wet
She cannot see
The trap that's set
He drops his net
Captures his prey
Suddenly the ebony night
Becomes bright as day
Finally...
She's falling
He's calling out her name
She faces him 
The light has dimmed
But, the eyes she's loved; remain the same
In her soul a bitter pain
On his cheek a glittering trail
Together; they tell the story of a Love & Betrayal.

Angelia Ramirez.

xx Beyond Even Death xx

Where does love begin?
On a babies laugh
 From some place deep within?
It will change you indefinitely
You forget where your going
cant remember where you've been
Through stormy seas
and pelting rain
In your eyes, a silent plea
Please let our gift remain;
Pictures in my brain
I held your hand
My heart once so bland
Knows more pain than can be bared
A burden that cannot be shared
Stand beside my soul
Eternity we faced
Brave, Bold
Hands shake, my skin, its cold
Visions of Red, Purple, and Black
Emotions that wont be held back
Wave after wave of sorrow
Hurt crashes; it burns
You are so, so near
Yet so far away
Watching the sunrise on your hair, as night turned to day
STAY!! My heart breaks
My soul speaks
Forever?
A day?
You held me near
I pushed away
I Drew you close
You chose to leave without say
I needed you;
I wanted you
I Remember;
I forget
Endless nights, your pet
I gave my all
You gave your best
Take with you my beating heart
Beyond even death
Now my love
We've faced the Ultimate Test.

Angelia Ramirez

You Must...

The bridges are burned
The towns are ruined
Paste on a smile
You must get through it
Straighten your shoulders
Dry your tears
You must do it
Alone in the storm
Desperate in the pain
But you must succeed
for its all that remains
Remember in failure
is a fate worse than death
Head held high
You must not cry
You must fight!
Innocence, Loyalty
Honor, Honesty
These, matter most in life.
Great is the sacrifice
You must be strong
Though the battle will be long
The enemy ever elite
You must have faith
For; at the end of this bitter night
Is victory.

Angelia Ramirez

Hidden Emotion( a poem of a love lost)

The emotions that i hide
The ones you just cant seem to see
The thought of being apart is killing me
Every night i make a wish
To have you in my arms
To hold
To kiss
I had you for a little while
Every moment shared with u
Made me smile
Maybe in another lifetime
We'll be together
And I'll have u to hold
From then till forever
Remember i love you
Forever and always
Until I'm with you
I'll be counting down the days.